motivation

a few things have happened since i last blogged i been just trying to enjoy life and such and been doing my research for my story and all my motivation has been lost in the blink of an eye well it really just happened because of something that happened between a few of my friends i really don’t like telling others business on blogs but it was a heated argument and it really kinda of just hurt me cause i might just be right about everything and after that night it evaporated slowly along with the veil of non fuck givings because those two people are worth all the fucks i can give but hey things change and unless we learn to accept them in order to keep moving forward which is why I’ve probably been isolating myself from everyone while trying to stay the same old me so i’m that constant in their lives that doesn’t change but i wanna move forward i wanna evolve so to speak and through those feelings of wanting to push forward i partly wanna just leave NY for a while i wanna just wander the world bouncing from country to country learning everything i can from anyone who will teach me i know it sounds like some kind of ridiculous batman situation but sometimes i feel it is necessary to make the journey because its NEVER the destination but that Initial Step you take towards the journey but i still have my own demons i need to come to terms with i try everyday to deal with these things on my own to no avail its an uphill battle and i hope yu whoever you are wish me luck and safety on my personal journey of self discovery tho it is one that wont start for a long time…as for my lack of motivation the void left there is being filled with the last book in the ERAGON series INHERITANCE im almost done with the book and i have loved every moment of it, its one of a few things that is keeping my attention safe in the world of fantasy and my mind is primed to finish my story and hopefully illustrate it 

so till next time thanks for reading Stay Gold

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